The Life & Times of Allison Jane

Just happened to catch End of Time on BBC America.

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SO NOT COMFORTABLE WITH THIS.

::brain cramp::

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Not much is up these days. I got an EO from work yesterday, and I was off for the holiday. It really wasn't fun. My parents are stuck in New York, plus, I slept all day. There was nothing to do, and I really don't want to spend any money. So, I have just been up, and staying up all night, and sleeping all day ugh. For some reason, I don't feel motivated to do much anymore. I don't know what's wrong with me. I had a short conversation with Ryan, and he made me realize something about myself. When I think about it after the whole "Mike" situation, I really haven't bounced back to the things I use to do. I've tried, but, I just don't feel the motivation as I once did. My weight has gotten out of control again, and all that I lost in the beginning has seemingly come back. I feel like I am back to the person that I thought I was getting rid of. Ugh, I hate buying clothes because I won't look good in them. I don't like going anywhere because I don't have any clothes, and I don't look good. *sighs* There was a time when I started to like the way I looked, and took care of myself, and for some reason I just don't care anymore


This is part of the reason I don't date. No guys will go for me (or atleast the ones that i like). It's always the rejection line of "You have a great personality, but, you're not my type". If I was on the outside looking at me I'd probably say the same thing. My issues seem to stem longer than simple dating issues. I just don't know what I am doing with myself. I know what I want to do, but, the only thing stopping me is me, and I just don't know what to do about myself or what I feel. Did the Mike situation really take a lot out of me? I ask myself. Apparently, it has. When I get very depressed as I did in that situation, I tend to lose ALL focus on what I need to do. My self-esteem has decreased a lot. The only thing that's keeping me going is the hope that i will get back to my old self once again..........maybe. Maybe I might consider some therapy, I don't know. My emotions seem to get very over whelming at times. I know i'm over that bastard, but, am I really over what happened and how it made me feel? This is crazy....

I spent Christmas Eve at my dads.....Christmas night at the mountain. 
I hope everyone had a Merry Christmas!! May your stockings get filled and hearts be blessed.

well i am happy to be off work for 8 days.
i'm excited to spend the holidays with my family and friends.
we took soni out dancing for her birthday on sat.
i hadn't been down since we took our girls to see new moon opening night.
i could not stop staring at her teeth.
after 6 years someone finally got smart and turned her metal in for little extra spending cash.

                                                                

Original is available in the shop:  http://www.etsy.com/view_listing.php?listing_id=37112441 If you'd like this as an xmas gift I will ship it priority and it should get to you in time if you are in the states. Love, Tina

Heard in an advert for Aldi:

"If you shop here and don't save money, you must not have bought anything."

...semantics fail y/y?

I know there's a whole nother WEEK of posting, but I wanted to throw out some recs from sga_santa so far, because there have been some AWESOME fics posted. Starting with the gift fic for me:

A Quick Guide to Group Cohesion, by [Anon], adorable Team gen with a frisson of McShep. This fic is like a Christmas cookie--sweet and light and a little bit nutty.

The Mute Shepherd, by [Anon]. So it's not the greatest title, and from the summary, you'd think it'd be just another fic about John pining for Rodney in angsty silence. But this fic is far more complicated--and brutal--than that, with cameos from SG-1 and SGU (the latter of which won't bother you if you swore that mess off) and brilliant characterizations for the guys AND all the people in their orbit. And just when you think it's going to all end in tears, the author bails them out with a happy ending that not even John quite believes in.

villa triste, by [Anon]. I initially overlooked this story because of the McKeller tag, but it's all background stuff, trust me. This is a fucked-up headgame between Rodney and some nasty, nasty kidnappers, so if you need something to cleanse your palate after "A Quick Guide"...

In Another Life, by [Anon], which is Lorne/Zelenka with zombies. I don't normally care for this pairing because too often it seems like a forced knockoff of McShep, but this fic is excellent and hot and a little bit sad.

The Sacrificial Mage by [Anon]. This monster of a fic weighs in at 65,000 words, but trust me, it is so worth it. It's a rare story where the world-building and the character-building are deeply intertwined, though the former is truly original and the latter is true to canon. If you're a fan of sword and sorcery AUs, you will enjoy the hell out of this one.

OMG irradiatedsoup, thank you for the paid time coupon! ::gets all icons back::

Best video game ever + Dancing + Bread = POKEMON PARA PARA PAN. Brain asplode. So awesome.

I bought this. XD

Merry Christmas, if you want it.

THE classic.



...though this may ramp up the awesome quite a bit.

I'm in a pretty crappy mood, but i think i'm going to drown myself in peppermint (tea, candies, candy canes) and listen to some music - maybe Christsmas, maybe not - and play some WoW and try to get my mind off of it. I hope i can. I'm going to try, anyway.

Regardless, Christmas baking begins soon. It's work, kind of, but i like doing it.